Life on the streets sucks. Sorry for being so blunt, but it's true. I have grown weary of trying to dance around the language, trying to talk about homelessness in an acceptable main stream media way. It is one of the worse and most undignified ways for any human to exist. It fucking sucks.
I know it sucks cause I worked for five years on my documentary about homelessness and spent months living on the streets. But, don't take my word for it, go out there and do the thing.
Fortunately the documentary shows solutions and offers hope. But not for rape victims. I discovered a video clip recently that got overlooked while I was editing my documentary Here Comes That Dreamer.
Thinking about it now, I may have subconsciously ignored the clip. Perhaps my brain stuffed it away. Having been sexually abused as a child I can understand why it was thrown into the backpack. I also think this is why I am presenting this horrific story now. I still get enraged even after rounds and years of therapy.
Or perhaps since this is the end of the year and I feel it's appropriate to "muck out the barn" as they say. Start with a clean place to move forward from in 2021.
A clean place, however, to start from is never going to happen. I will always have to relieve the horrors of the abuse. It is challenging but I have learned to temper my reactions to the past using the three C's; Catch it, Control it, Change it.
The clip I rediscovered has been haunting me for months. I have to get it out of my head. Sorry dear readers, but it's your turn to be enraged and upset. Maybe to the point of actually taking action and stop letting men control the arena.
Although the clip is only 16 seconds from a two minute video, it cannot be shuffled to the side, at least in my opinion. It is in the first part of the trailer I created for the documentary HCTD. To me the trailer has now become a statement about street life rape. Perhaps I can explore this horrible thing. Do a documentary about it. Anyways. you have been warned this is a horrible video.